As a child,
girls often have a phase when they play princesses.
I never really had that phase. I played alone a lot. I was a tramp, an elf, a squirrel or a florist… But I have an elder sister who always wanted to be the princess. Sometimes when playing with her I was the princess’s cousin or a friend or maybe a royal pet, but never the heiress herself.
A while ago I happened to mention this to my friend and she kind of felt sorry for me. It left me a bit confused. Did I miss something as a child? Should I have had that princess experience?
I don't remember feeling left out because I think I wanted to choose those down-to-earth characters myself. Maybe sometimes I was ordered to play some particular role by my sister or whoever I was playing with. But even then I always found something interesting and deep features in my characters and focused on them and brought them up.
My friend’s reaction just made me wonder would some areas in my adult life be easier or clearer if I had acted like a princess in some point of my youth. Played that role where I'm naturally put on a pedestal and been respected and loved because of my position among others and especially as a woman.
I felt loved by my family, but still, would that chance of having some over the top admiration have helped me to build my self-esteem and femininity stronger? But I was settled being the sidekick and finding the value of my characters myself.
Instead of pure admiration I have given more value to the gratitude I get from good deeds I do or my nice behavior. That’s not all wrong of course, but the real world doesn't need any effort doing its job and bringing me down no matter how much I try, so some experience in receiving the bits of praise the world sometimes drops on you, might help. That's especially because, again, instead of admiration I have felt over the top confusion when the world has poured the praises on me for some reason. I’m not used to that and don’t know how to handle it.
In the princess rally I might have been the sidekick but on my lonely quests deep in the woods I was the hero. That might have had some effect on how I have resolved my adult life too…
I never really had that phase. I played alone a lot. I was a tramp, an elf, a squirrel or a florist… But I have an elder sister who always wanted to be the princess. Sometimes when playing with her I was the princess’s cousin or a friend or maybe a royal pet, but never the heiress herself.
A while ago I happened to mention this to my friend and she kind of felt sorry for me. It left me a bit confused. Did I miss something as a child? Should I have had that princess experience?
I don't remember feeling left out because I think I wanted to choose those down-to-earth characters myself. Maybe sometimes I was ordered to play some particular role by my sister or whoever I was playing with. But even then I always found something interesting and deep features in my characters and focused on them and brought them up.
My friend’s reaction just made me wonder would some areas in my adult life be easier or clearer if I had acted like a princess in some point of my youth. Played that role where I'm naturally put on a pedestal and been respected and loved because of my position among others and especially as a woman.
I felt loved by my family, but still, would that chance of having some over the top admiration have helped me to build my self-esteem and femininity stronger? But I was settled being the sidekick and finding the value of my characters myself.
Instead of pure admiration I have given more value to the gratitude I get from good deeds I do or my nice behavior. That’s not all wrong of course, but the real world doesn't need any effort doing its job and bringing me down no matter how much I try, so some experience in receiving the bits of praise the world sometimes drops on you, might help. That's especially because, again, instead of admiration I have felt over the top confusion when the world has poured the praises on me for some reason. I’m not used to that and don’t know how to handle it.
In the princess rally I might have been the sidekick but on my lonely quests deep in the woods I was the hero. That might have had some effect on how I have resolved my adult life too…
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princess crisis to go?
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